On the eve of a journey’s end! What an experience it has been.
My prayer is always for new experiences with Daddy. This year, I got so much more than I could share here.
God has been my peace, my friend, my shoulder to cry on and my shield.
He has corrected me, rerouted me, restored and elevated me.
If I’m not sure of anything else I can certainly say that he will never leave me. This year has taught me that he’s always near.
To my friend, my God, thank you for loving me and choosing me.
I have 29 days of boasting left 😭🙌💃
Daddy has been amazing me with new experiences and new encounters. I’ve had new hurdles that I had to overcome and I’ve had old hurdles that I’ve had to let burn up in flames. But through it all, he’s been with me.
I’ve conquered my past and now I’m walking in my promotion.
Actually, I’m dancing in my promotion.
Wow… Today has been exhausting! Extremely!
But I’ll get to that tomorrow. My testimony is that God CAME THROUGH! I was in the midst of kissing someone when God presented himself.
I have NEVER been in the midst of kissing with the temptation of sex running through my veins and remembered that God was watching me. Never. I always remembered Daddy after I fell to the temptation and had sex.
It was strange. I kept wondering why I couldn’t remember Daddy was looking. And I prayed that one day he’d remind me that he was there.
Well, that day came not so long ago. It was strange because I had an exam that required me to analyse the facts surrounding a rape scenario and draw conclusions as to what happened. This triggered me. I couldn’t even complete that aspect of the exam.
I make it my duty to avoid anything that’s too sexual because it tends to trigger my desires. But this time, I couldn’t avoid it. I tried to fight and pray and fight.
Long story short, I didn’t stay as firm as I’d like as I ended up watching porn and masturbating. But as I type this, I am boastful. Boastful in the fact that at the point when I was about to have sex, Daddy reminded me that he was THERE watching me.
Listen, I’ve never been so grateful to know that Daddy was watching me. I’m so elated because in my time of weakness, he not only showed up, he showed up like never before.
He answered my prayer and let me become fully aware that his eyes were on me. If that isn’t love then I don’t know what it is. He loves me, oh yes he does.
I’m living proof
Of what the mercy of God can do
If You knew me then
You’d believe me now
He turned my whole life upside down
Took the old and He made it new
That’s just what the mercy of God can do (Mercy)
This is me today! Grateful for his mercy.
I am who I am because of his love and mercy.
The following song came to mind as I thought about writing this post:
Think about his love. Think about his goodness. Think about his grace, that brought us through…
I started to put the song aside but then I realised it’s the day of celebrating love.
Therefore, I honour God’s love towards me. Daddy has loved me from before the point of conception, to finding me when I got lost, until today. I can trust that his love never fails.
Thank you for loving me way more than I deserve or can even imagine.
Twas grace that taught my heart to fear. (Amazing Grace)
His love teaches me to love.
This year, my aim is to do two things.
- Be obedient as often as possible.
- Be faithful to God.
Some days it’s easy. Other days it is hard.
But I am learning to love God so much because of who he has been to me.
We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19
Your love is more than okay!
I find that I most enjoy songs that sing of the love and faithfulness of God. Why?
I have experienced his love. The one that went out of his way to find me when I was lost.
And he has kept his promise so far to always be with me and guide me.
Thank you for being God!
When I look at my life and see that I literally didn’t do anything good to deserve his love… Bring tears to my eyes.
What manner of man is this? That he loves me despite my inadequacies and my failures.
The love of God, so rich and pure. How measure-less and strong. It shall forevermore endure, the saints and angels’ song.
Thank you for your grace 🙇
Beneath the surface
And what my eyes have seen
Past the temporary
I hear you beckon me
To fall a little deeper
Further than I’ve ever know
I’m breaking through the boxes
I’m running to your Throne
To You by Maverick City Music
I’m coming back to you…
Even though I am already “back”, I love this song for what it means.
It speaks of Daddy’s open arms and eagerness to have us back into a relationship with him. It speaks of a love so pure that it ignores the reality that we walked out on communion with God, and instead encourages our return.
I know of this love because it was extended to me. When I got lost along my Christian journey and I stopped listening to his voice, he never gave up on me. Daddy always called my back to right standing with him.
And when I returned, oh what an amazing love which extended grace and mercy to me. He has transformed my life and continues to improve who I am to become who he created me to be.
What’s every other option,
When I know the sweetest choice?
My flesh may be a beggar,
But my spirit knows Your voice.
And I won’t be satisfied
With temporary pleasures.
I wanna taste and see in full
What I’ve only known in measures
I love that Daddy loves me regardless…
…regardless of what I’ve done and how disobedient I’ve been.
…regardless of my birth and ancestors.
…regardless of my inadequacies.
…regardless of my failure to love others as he asks.
He still loves me. And he loves everyone else with the same energy!
What a love! What a God!
I took the Lord’s Supper (Holy Communion) yesterday.
That’s when it hit me…
Jesus knew how he would be beaten, mocked, nailed to a cross, and speared within a matter of days. Yet he took the time to sit with his disciplines to establish a practice that would be benefial to me always remembering his sacrifice for me.
Oh the love that drew salvation’s plan. Oh the grace that brought it down to man.
I love how Daddy loves us. He will constantly reach out to us when we lose our way or do something wrong. And he NEVER condemns us.
I am a living testimony of his love.
I will praise you, Lord. With every breath that I take. I will praise you, Lord, this promise I make. And could eternity end and start all over again, even then, I will praise you, Lord.
The beauty about Daddy is that he doesn’t want ritualistic behaviour. He desires to have a relationship.
That’s why he portrays himself as a Father. So that we can seek him for advise, support, and love.
He paved the way so that I could be his child and have a relationship with him as my Father.
Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that.
Ephesians 5:1-2 MSG
Yesterday, Day 8, I spoke about my lack of focus when praying for myself but my intense drive when praying for others. Well, it’s still the same.
But today is different.
I believe God wanted me to learn the following:
1. If you desire to spend more time with Me and strengthen our relationship, you have to be selfless. Spending time with Me will require that you look out for others and demonstrate My love, like Jesus did, to them.
2. Spending time to know Me doesn’t mean our time together should be all about you. You want to know Me, know that My heart is for My children. And if My heart is for My children, I will speak to you concerning them. I will direct you to pray for them. Many prophets (Isaiah, Jeremiah) have spent time with Me, and most times I would speak to them about My children. You connect with Me to pour out to those around you.
3. Just because your personal life feels the same, doesn’t mean you’re wasting time and that these 30 days will be in vain. What is important is your heart. You having a desire to pray more for My children is the effect of you drawing closer to Me. The evidence that you have spent time with Me is that you now have new and unexpected desires.
4. Seek me and you will find Me means, “desire more of Me and you will become more like Me.” I’m not the God to show up with no effect. Mountains melt in My presence. Therefore, you can never be the same in My presence.
Mind blown… Thoughts shifted. Spending time with him doesn’t mean it always has to be about me. Thank you, Abba.
Daddy has the ability to love us all, even when we’re at odds with each other.
At Day 162, I feel like I’ve said it all. But there is more that I need to know and more I can share about the God that I serve.
The truth is that some times our fiercest “enemies” are Christians. People who serve the same God we serve.
But what God wants us to realise is that our real enemies are not the people we see. It’s the forces we can’t see. They exist in the spiritual realm.
So, when our brothers and sisters start to oppose us, let us not retaliate against them. Our fight is not with flesh and blood. Let’s try to remember that as much as they may be a thorn in our sides, God still loves them.
And that’s a beautiful thing, because when we become the thorn in other person’s sides, God still loves us.
God treats me very special.
I’ve come to realise he doesn’t see me as the mistakes I make. He sees me as he designed me to be.
When I approach his throne, I NEVER feel condemned by him, instead I receive love.
He calls me righteous and his vessel, and never fails to give me pure and clean garments when I soil my clothes.
I am amazed that, even in a broken emotional state, God still uses me to encourage or help his people.
If you know what I’m saying, then you know. If you don’t know, I invite you to spend some time with him and look not on how you feel about yourself but look at how he treats you.
I was reading 2 Samuel 12 where God sent Nathan to tell David that his acts, of taking the wife of Uriah and having Uriah killed, were displeasing to him (God).
As I reflected on it, I realised that Daddy is the type of God to show us where we fall short, in his attempt to bring us back into his righteousness. In my opinion, David may not have thought anything so wrong with his actions as he was the king at the time. And basically, kings did whatever they pleased. Therefore, God had to show him how/why his actions were wrong.
For whom the Lord loveth he chasteneth (disciplines), and scourgeth every son whom he receiveth. Heb 12:6
The God that I serve is the type to show you when you’re on the wrong path so that you can make the necessary steps and return to the right path.
God is love.
And his love is powerful!
He sits high and looks down low.
Yet he rules as a father, with gentleness and love.
Today, my exhibition on Daddy is about a topic I’ve spoken about it before… and I’ll speak about it again…
God’s love is unlike any other. His love doesn’t want to see us harm ourselves or harm others.
His love teaches that there is room in the kingdom to serve; there is no need for competition and trying to outdo others.
His love tells me that when you win, I should rejoice with you; and when you lose, I should mourn with you.
If you have not experienced his love, I invite you to meet my father in prayer and ask him to come into your heart so that you experience him for yourself.
If you see him as a God of punishment and judgement, I ask you to change your view and look to him as a loving father.