Last year, I got so low spiritually that I could hardly focus when I prayed and I had no desire to study the Word of God. I prayed, tearfully begging God to step in and show me what’s wrong. I poured out my heart and told him that I needed him to point me in the right direction or I may very well die.
I recognised my emptiness. So I told him that if he wasn’t going to do anything to effect a change, then he should just let me physically die. This is because without him, I am nothing and life is meaningless.
Strangely, my car started to develop some issues: the engine would shut off but the ignition would be left on, the headlights would notably blink when it auto started at nights, and the driving wasn’t always smooth as it bucked/stuttered from time to time. When I looked at all the symptoms, I felt that the battery was the issue.
Naturally, I took it to the mechanic asap. He tested the battery and it showed that the car’s battery was weak. So I needed to get a new one quickly. Funnily enough, I named my car “Purpose”. While driving, after getting the diagnosis, God revealed to me that these two events were similar. Purpose, the car, was struggling to perform due to battery issues. While I was also struggling to perform spiritually, but was my battery??
I asked God to show me my spiritual battery so that I could change it. Quickly, I assumed it was the bible but as I thought about it, I saw that the bible was external to me and it is something I have to feed myself on. The bible, therefore, was my fuel. But still, what was my spiritual battery? Then I asked myself, “what is inside of you that you must turn on to get moving?”. The answer was instantaneous.
My spiritual battery is my prayer life. I needed to change it asap. And that’s what I did. I started a series of fasting and prayer, forcing myself to pray meaningfully and to remain focused. That made a world of difference.
Are you running low?
Have you been struggling to read, pray, or fast? Have you been weak to temptations, more than the norm? Have you felt like you’ve lost your desire to serve God? Have you been finding comfort in just about everything else but God, recently?
You may need to change your spiritual battery. Change how you pray. Shift your prayer times. Pray shorter and more precise prayers rather than lengthy ones. Find a prayer closet. Pray more during the day, for 5-15 minutes each hour, when at work/school, where possible.
Change your spiritual battery and you’ll notice a better performance in your life.